It is so cold. My heater quit sometime during the night, so at 3:45am I get up to cover my dogs. Once they are "tucked in" I get into bed and begin building a nest of pillows and throw my sheets and comforter as far over my head as I can and curl into a tight ball. It is nights like this when I genuinely miss the feeling of someone beside me. Someone to curl around me, envelope me in love.
Tonight it is just me though. I have taken care of my own, and taken care of myself. For the first time since it all started, I can't say that I am blissful, but I am content. Life is a series of moments, ones that make us happy, and ones that make us miserable. I am glad that I have the memory of tenderness. I know I have to get over the moments that made me miserable to get to the next place in my life, but how hard should that have to be? How do you balance the moments of happiness with the moments of pain to realize what is best for you and do the right thing?
I know I am not done making mistakes, but I also know that I will never be done learning about myself, this world and these moments.
Friday, October 23, 2009
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